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THINKING MODE
When I think of the past.. smiled over it =) Thinking of the happy memories.. and even chuckling to myself at work
CONTRADICTING MODE
When I wanted 2 ... take my phone & sms him, yet I told myself, no I shouldnt. I will b too reliant on him - I always rely on ppl. it's time I learn. And.. e more I rely on him, the more I can't leave him.
DEVASTATION MODE
When... tears came to my eyes. When my whole heart sinks.. and I just feel lk.... I rather not exist. Like.. now.
we chatted yst. Den dz asked 4 patch. It hurted.. but I rejected. I was so touched when he said, he dun wanna care abt wad others said, as long as he can b with me. I desperately wan 2.. but I'll never learn! I cant forgive myself. And.. it hurted me 2 much. That even though he really wanna b with me, why did he said all e poison words when he left me? those words hurt me like crazy. and why wan 2 FORGET? we had got so much memories 2 keep, why totally forget instead of letting go? and throwing away all e things I gave u.. Those things cost money, it cost EFFORT n SINCERCITY! e rice grains I wrote so painstakingly.. e saga seeds I picked.. e heart I sewed.. why cant u understand me just abit more, dezheng? I dun accept u back now doesnt mean I WUN in e future! gimme TIME! cant u? why muz u go throw away everything and erase me off? ur dat one guy who I really love, yet why muz u hurt me this drastically when we part? ur not e only one shedding tears.. and why do u even say u promise 2 treat e next girl u will love real good de? u know it will hurt me!!!!
Im going crazy. losing my mind.. I wish I dun exist. fuck my life.
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