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Somehow... yst nite explode le. nw like..... everythin doesnt really matter. I cant help the way things is going on now. Read von's entry. she cute sia, call me "lia". heeh.. and she talked abt him. how much he changed... when I read it.. I cant help feeling sad. indeed he had changed so much. someone so damn sweet.. so cute, so yandao, so kawaii~ our pretty boy. now... sigh I dunno. Mebbe it's really my fault. But this type of things are inevitable wad. indeed I din wan tis 2 continue. 3years, how 2 tahan like tis? but how can I try to make things go back 2 normal? I hurt him. and now he had damn hurt me too. I wan all this to get over with. but how? I've got no idea, but Im losing grip..
alrights. so my day after school. sia la.. I went 2 buy my jay concert tix =) really got satisfying seats, Im damn happy. damn broke but happy =D den just daydream n walked ard J8 while waitin 4 dz. He got some prob sia.. his friend. den lk fight fight.. so silly. we went eat sakae sushi den wah! damn nice!! LOL! we're so horrible.. e 2 of us wiped off 25 plates =p his target is actually 30. that crazy fella. lol.. but it's nice we juz kept on eatin and eating.. and he keep teasin me den I slapped him den he complain me violent. den I told him.. I tend 2 get high when play 2 much den I will slap ppl =p my darlin actually replied "wah den u SM sure good sia" (-_____-''' of cuz I reward him with another slap. hehe
after dat I acc him...... go seiyu buy underwear =x that fella purposely wan make me paiseh. heh.. den go home. at mrt.. we hug hug.. hehe. In e midst of huggin suddenly tears started to form. Im so scared Im going to tell him. If things go wrong I wun get to hug him anymore. Even though his shoulders damn bony and he no muscles at all (hehe) but he's e one I love most. ahh.. walkin home.. I suddenly turned quiet. we were holdin hands.. he asked me wad happened. I said got smth tel him.. he so shocked. he asked, sad thing? I nodded.. we sat down somewhr.. my tears already start flowing. he damn worried lk tis.. I passed him e letter. sigh. I watched as he read on.. den I keep crying. sigh.. i damn useless. He turned serious... den really serious. and he turned so quiet.. he flipped over to finish readin. den..... he turn to e front again 2 read e hurting paragraph again. He asked, kenny they all hate me cuz of this? I nodded. He kept really quiet, I was ..... he told me not to cry. He den read e paragraph again! I groaned, asked him y keep readin that. he said, "must read to understand ma. u do comprehension oso must like tis de.." hahahaha! I flipped over & pointed to ask him e statement: can he forgive me? He said, NO in chinese. den i cried. =p he smiled abit n said kiddin.
He was quieter I definitely know it bothers him. but he said, he forgives me. it's over le dun tink. I felt so bad! I din know how to make better!!! dezheng says.. he got alot of qns to ask but he knws some things R better left unknown. He asked... why did I tell him only now? and... he muttered, "wad if I met u on e streets when u were with him?" =( he crushed e paper away n threw it. ouch. he stil send me hm.. we lingered ard e lift cuz I cant go hm with a tear-streaked face, wait my family wil tink dezheng bully me. he told me 2 stop cryin.. forget everythin, since I know my mistake le. He's too forgiving, it makes me feel bad! sigh... but Im glad I told him. I went hm damn tired.. msg von to tel her.. thanks my dear. for e support~ e reason y I nv reply is cuz I fell aslp =p
after dezheng left I did msg him. i asked, if he can really accept me again.. or do he need me to leave him... he nv reply me. I was worried but of cuz he need time 2 cool. at nite.. 8plus he msg me! told me not to think le.. =) den says, "u say muz make it up to me de wor! now den u know I good" wahahhaha.. I felt ... happy =) I knew I was wrong. and e person who shd be angriest at me forgave me readily. Of cuz I know it will take time.. but Im determined 2 make it up to dezheng.. to treat him well, to gain his trust again! he treats me better den anyone.. I love him to bits! hehe.. It never occurred to me b4.. when I was with ben I din tink of all tis. sigh.. Ben will really be just appearin in my life for that 3wks? Even though.. within that 3wks he had made an impact in my life. e kind of chemistry is hard 2 find indeed. but it's all in e past.. of cuz when I hear e songs I will think of him. But as a memory.. TODAY! Just b4 dz came along I heard "hui dao guo qu" ... -smiles- Im puttin it behind.
all ends well? I guess so~ Had a great laugh with my family now.. over "dinosaur" and my lousiness in chinese... I have a good life. I got great family. I got a real good bf. damn great. LOL. I got a great best friend who is so impt to me, and who Im going to e Jielun concert with. One of e best seats too~!! rock on.. I got my sec sch friends who stil cares. lee gar gang shar ying......... I got my SHE. I got my boon boon. wahahhaha.. he's so nice 2 me. love his wink. lol.. indeed GAA is against me. i'll just have to live with it~ Life is good!
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