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Saturday, September 25

Whew. Saturday - started off qte badly - went sch in search of PC that can save my files in my diskette - but all labs R closed. wasted trip! so vexed.. n jie told me its open on sat lors! sigh.. so I called boon & dragged him out early. In e end I still waited.. at amk mrt. so I just sat dere & daydream a whole damn lot... about alot of ppl.. lol.

Boon came, went his hse 4 project. We were pretty slackish, but we managed 2 do most of our stuffs! Stayed till 7.. von came abt 4. She finally woke up at noon den called me.. we talked cock a lot. told her 2 come over 2 get books frm boon, oso to talk cock. she came - both of us R juz dressed in t shirts and shorts. Damn saturday dress-down code. lol.. we juz typed our report, do e ppt.. b4 von came along I was at boon's room. We talked qte alot.. abt O levels, his past, my past.. he got 2 small stuffed toys. Den we began throwing each other with it! LOL! It hurts damn much, dat idiot. lk dat treat his gong zhu sia.. lol.. but we juz threw ard constantly, damn funnie! =)

At ard 6 von, boon & I went downstairs. wan get Mr Softee for 50cents but spend alot more! wahaha.. buy chips, mashed potatoes, ice cream all tis.. go playgrd eat. enjoyed myself - e wind's blowing great, we had delicious food. played with one kid dere - damn cute. den e 3 of us recapped on our childhood. Im e non-peeing one, boon is e pro-peeing. WAHAHAHA!! played ard.. had fun. den had 2 leave.... reach hm as an attempt to acc mom. den she go out (-__-''' den me, boon and von online - all home alone. shd have go watch movie juz nw. sigh.. but had fun la! eheh..

angel, why u nv blog sia.. wonder wad u are doing in msia. after exams hope u dun go back so fast. so we can chill out together lk how von & I did today. wahahaha..

was pretty =) den start to tink den... sigh. din know wad 2 do. read his blog - he talked abt me. I often wished he mentioned abt me as lk last time - as friends. now - sigh. Boon juz nw did ask me, do I intend to go on lk tis for 3 yrs? of cuz not! But he dunwan talk to me sia.. wad I do? he said he juz cant stand guys wear green hat or smth lk tis sia.. I not sure. GROANS! not cuz I wan him 2 talk to me again den I think of tellin e truth, but - it's hard. I just wouldnt know how to even say it out. I know von will wan me 2b honest with him - yet angel says since now nothin le den keep it a secret. OIE! Im caught in da middle again!!!! HELP!!!!!!

lol. but .... I tot of it - to say the truth. I've rehearsed it in my mind. but it appeared that I will c the totally hurt expression on his face - and he may walk away from me. If he did I wun blame him. but can I bear to? We are separated, and miraclously this time when we are back together - he's a total changed person. Someone totally good 2 me, so unlike e past. He's so good 2 me. And I will hurt him if I told him I came across a guy who got so much chemistry with me & we went out & I dui bu qi him - he'll be crestfallen cuz it's a guy I juz knew, compared to knowin him for 2yrs. How am I supposed 2 explain e part where e guy is really sweet 2 me & I cant resist & everythin happened & I know it is so wrong yet I dunno how to stop so i let it happen? arrgghh..

I know I shd juz let it go, let nature take its course, lk wad angel said. But yet there's urging for me 2 confess. wad am I to do? I am really confused. sigh.

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