s.h.e girls
After bloggin I went 2 everyone's blog.. see if anyone updated. he did. so I read on.. they've been close with madeline~ so cute. she's a great girl. he's been flirtin with her, lol. I wonder if he did like her now. b4 that I read mad. blog.. she said GAA was disbanded. was surprised.. went 2 check msn. indeed.
back to his blog. read on... till e last part. After reading.. I had e sudden urge to talk to him. I seemed to have so much 2 talk to him. we had not been talking for centuries. I feel lk crying now. sigh.. idiot qi, so ez cry. well.. since e explosion on sunday.. I had not wanted 2 care anything abt him. since he hated me so much. But when I read e blog.. it seemed lk e past him is back. And it makes me miss him so much. I know I myself seem 2 develop this shield of hate towards him - since he did wad, lol, and oso cuz he did hurt me. It's unfair e way he blamed everythin on me. But I realized it's all a shield. I never will want to hate him, cuz somehow in e past, we had done so much that r ... of great friends status.
in e past, he used 2 accompany me all e time. sms, msn.. even when he was really tired he will acc me 2 chat. i rmb when we first chatted on e phone.. and we chatted 4 hours! den, we were of constant contact. we see each other everyday in sch, den aft sch we'll stil b in contact. he nv stayed out of my reach. everytime I needed him he was dere for me. den everytime I would mornin call him. everytime I did mornin call him den he wil not b late 4 sch =p den e stupid 5 pigheads M1 thing.. early in e mornin.. he was dere 2. had fun with him n his friend, I stil say him, dat he not gentleman not lk his friend. din know he had his asthma attack den. another time, we all happened 2b in town.. met him, together with his friends. den he offered 2 send me hm.. so damn far. silly boy. another time.. workin in town, till 11plus. he came dwn n send me hm! so damn late n he had 2 take cab home...... at tis time things r already going past e friends stage, but i din stop it. mebbe Im really selfish. I nv know if i wil lk him in bf style, or i dunwan him leave me. he's a great companion.
den *poof* sigh. I really feel lk talkin 2 him nw, on msn. but... i dun dare 2, I guess. I dunno wad 2 expect, n I aint sure if he wan talk 2 me. but I dunwan him 2 lose sleep.. I dunwan him 2 smoke.. I wonder if he stil gets his asthma attacks. I wonder if he's eatin well in order to accomplish his 'grow fatter' wishlist. -scratches head- sigh I gotta stop thinking.
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